Adulting?
Haven't been posting anything for the past few days, cause for the first time in my life that I feel like I am actually adulting which is funny considering I am less than five months away from being 25 years old and this is the first time that I actually felt like I am doing something people my age should be doing or at least done.
for the past few weeks, I’ve actually been hunting and applying for jobs which are funny considering the other international students are going out go have fun, doing touristy stuff while I am here sending and writing job applications.
not that I am blaming them though, each of us have our own priorities for them is to have fun but for me is to find a job where I can get money. just a few days ago one of the job applications I sent got a reply saying that I was accepted and the company offered me the role of being their intern.
honestly, when I saw the email I was surprised cause part of me considers myself unhirable with my lack of experience in the field that I am interested in yet I was offered the role.
as I read through the offer and realized that the internship was unpaid, not gonna lie I was disappointed though not surprised cause I’ve seen internships where the interns are unpaid as well but at least they are compensated with something like food or travel costs, both which this internship doesn't come with.
so I am now a bit lost, a part of me wants to accept it cause I know I need the experience but another part of me wants to deny it because of something I learned in diploma or at least I think I learned in diploma (he’s never going to read this so he won't know) called Cost and Benefit Analysis.
from what I can tell, the internship requires me to go to the office at least two days a week out of four days of work which itself sounded not bad but then I have to weigh in the fact that I need to board a bus, a train and possibly a subway if I don't feel like walking for forty-five minutes. each of these is going to cost me quite a lot and considering the fact that I am an international student from Malaysia and the currency between GBP and MYR is so stupid (5.88 last time I checked) the money used for transportation alone can feed me for weeks.
so that's the literal cost, now move on to benefit. with this internship at least I’ll have something more that I could show in my resume that isn't from 2018. plus I think that I am going to learn a lot in the internship where I can build connections that would help me in the future.
so I am now lost about whether I should accept the offer. the three of the many questions that have been on my mind goes like this:
would I be offered another role?
would the next offer I am offered be better than the one this is?
who would want to give me a chance like this company is?
is this what adulting is really like? if it is i am so not ready for it.
